A woman has described the moment she gouged her own eyes out while she was high on crystal meth.
Kaylee Muthart, 20, said she was hallucinating when she deliberately blinded herself outside South Main Chapel and Mercy Centre, in South Carolina, on February 6.
‘So I pushed my thumb, pointer, and middle finger into each eye,’ she said.
‘I gripped each eyeball, twisted, and pulled until each eye popped out of the socket — it felt like a massive struggle, the hardest thing I ever had to do.’
She said she would have probably tried to claw out her brain out as well if a pastor had not heard her screaming ‘I want to see the light!’ and intervened.
Ms Muthart, from Anderson, added: ‘He later said, when he found me, that I was holding my eyeballs in my hands.
‘I had squished them, although they were somehow still attached to my head.’
She had taken a large dose of meth before the incident, which apparently made her think gouging her eyes would bring her closer to God.
She felt she had to sacrifice herself so no-one else in the world would be hurt.
Her mother Katy Tompkins had long ago realised her problem was out of control but she was unable to get her into rehabilitation in time.
Ms Muthart, who is bipolar, had started taking drugs last summer and claimed she got hooked after mistakenly smoking cannabis laced with cocaine or meth that a friend gave her.
From then things spiralled out of control and she quit school, left her job and broke up with her boyfriend.
She was also using ecstasy at the time.
Rather than feeling sorry for herself Ms Muthart has decided to be positive and even thinks losing her eyes may have been a good thing because she hasn’t used drugs since having an operation on her optic nerves.
She added: ‘It took losing my sight to get me back on the right path, but from the bottom of my heart, I’m so glad I’m here.’
Ms Muthart wants to return to education and study marine biology.
A GoFundMe page has been set up to raise money for her to buy a seeing-eye dog.